He is designed to kill me

There was an engineer. Once he made a machine to which we can give a person's name as input and machine will start attacking the person until he dies....and he tests machine with his own name... Now its the game... either his machine fails which is a failure for him or he himself die which is another one... 

This is me... who just made my own truths and kept it as a machine and who don't know whether to let my truth win or me win... each day me and my machine goes for a race and I know some day either it kills me or I will declare machine faulty and change it and set it again to my name... and I don't know whether there is a way out from this